Exceedingly Difficult

I’m typing with my left hand. With only my left hand. It’s slow-going. I am right-handed, dominantly, not ambidextrously one bit.

My hair looks awful today. I managed to wash and condition (in a 20-minute shower, wasting water), but drying with one hand was hopeless. Hold the hair dryer, blow, drop the dryer, brush, retrieve the dryer, blow.

I can barely prepare food, because I can’t hold a knife to chop. Adrian had to buy his lunch yesterday and today, other than his lentils. Instead of mincing vegetables into meatballs, I made Martin’s lunches from buffalo chorizo, which contains high-sal ingredients. Martin had an anxiety-ridden day. I blame myself.

You guessed it: I broke my right wrist. I was playing tag on ice skates with Martin. Despite his protests and refusal to play hockey, Martin is still a better skater than I am, and with a lower center of gravity, and he was wearing hockey skates, while I had ancient rented figure skates. In retrospect, challenging him to a game of tag was—well, you can choose the right word.

I have to wear a bulky cast for six weeks, and the orthopedic surgeon is banning contact sports and weights for three months. B’bye, spring softball season. My personal trainer is designing some “cardio and legs” program to replace my lifting routine. I’m glad ski season is winding down.

I will try to keep blogging. But I’m still not sure even how I will feed Martin, so I can’t make promises.


This is my arm! Why is the cast orange? Well, I do love Syracuse University.

6 thoughts on “Exceedingly Difficult

  1. I am curious how old your son was when you noticed his first symptoms. I have a five month old grandson that shows symptoms that are concerning – lack of eye contact, fixation on ceiling fans, no rolling over, poor sleep habits, little vocalization. I have started reading about autism knowing that this could be a diagnosis and knowing that the earliest intervention is important. I also know that it could be nothing, but his development is definitely on the delayed side.

    • In the case of my son, we began to sense something was “off” when he was about 22 months. That being said, knowing what I do now, I would have seen signs much earlier, including his inability to sleep, his restlessness, and his lack of language development.

  2. Hope you are on the mend! My son was recently in November dx ASD…among a larger then life list and I decided today of beginning my own blog about the fight I’m starting to understand how warriors has come to play 💙💙💙

  3. Hi! I just stumbled on your blog and am very impressed! I am a college kid and I am realizing that I probably have some form of autism. It started out being diagnosed with celiac’s when I was 16 and depression my sophomore year of college and feeling like the diagnoses didn’t quite “cover it”. have been trying to heal my GI problems (IBD) and mental health (depression/anxiety) for the past year with a vegan, SCD. I have found it extremely helpful and I am going to look into the low-sal diet for myself now, after reading your posts! It is so nice to be able to read about other people looking into diet approach and alternative therapies. 🙂

    I have found that I feel best eating a lot of raw, green veges (esp. cruciferous). I can think more clearly, feel much more alert and calm, and have more lasting consistent energy. [I’m a chemical engineer so I like to know the science behind it so I did some research and found that sulforaphane (major chemical component of these veges) supplementation helps with GI problems and autism (all interrelated). ] https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4217462/

    I have also been looking into FMT (fecal microbiota transplant). I had heard of it a while back from a PBS special on the gut by Dr. Perlmutter and didn’t think much of it bc the story was about a man with MS who was able to learn to walk again after FMT. Now, I am realizing the interconnectedness of GI and neurological disorders and how their treatments can actually be very similar… Anyway, FMT has been used in C.Diff, autism, MS, IBS, colitis, parkinson’s, etc etc with very positive results. Have you heard of this treatment? OpenBiome is a stool bank started by some MIT grads and it has a bunch of articles and published studies. I’m looking into for myself…

    Thanks again for the blog!!

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